Saturday, November 19, 2011 8:34 PM
37. Editorial ;

LOL I'm back ! With no apparent topic to talk about actually .
I'm just feeling lightweight now (LOL) so I've decided to upload the posters that I've edited for the fanfictions I've written .
Actually it's ongoing now ... And I'm not going to let anyone read it >)
Don't want anyone to laugh at my horrible writing skills .
They're embarrassing .____.
I like to write fanfictions . And I like to read them .
It's the only time I feel really happy cos' my imagination runs freely .
That and because of those fantasy moments with kpop idols .
Whatever , a girl can dream , can't she ?
My Infinite's one is called , "Vagaries of Love" . As seen above .
Featuring fictional character (whom I own) and Leader Gyu .
I wish I owned Kim Sunggyu but nooooooo I don't ):
Anyway , I'm still contemplating on whether I should post it on AFF or not .
Why is the poster so small anyway ?

And this is the B1A4 one that I'm writing right now !
It's called "Vantage Point" .
Starring Cha Sunwoo (MWAHAHAHA HIS NAME IS SO FUNNY) and a fictional character , again .
I don't like to use other female idols (because I get jealous LOL) .
I prefer fictional characters cos' I can create and develop their character and personality and change it any way I like it .
Sometimes I create them such that they have certain traits of mine .
It keeps me happy , LOL . I sound like some obsessed fangirl . Wtv .
Shall go back to AFF to read fanfics now .
Mama keeps scolding me because of it though .
I was scared , so scared .
I almost cried . But I didn't .
It was your day , I can't possibly cry and ruin it for you .
You guys are my favourite seniors .
I almost cried that day , 6 times .
I almost broke down 6 times . It was horrible .
Horrible ? That's how I felt .
I know you're disappointed , but so am I .
I know I did a bad job , but I tried .
I know it wasn't what you had expected , but I'm a first-timer at this kind of job .
I know that's no excuse for me to screw your last farewell up , but I just want to let you know , that even if you're mad , disappointed , angry , or even bear hatred towards me , I'll still love you as a senior , all the same .
I'll still cherish the moments we spent together .
I'll still smile at the secrets we shared .
I'll still continue to treat you with utmost respect , like how I used to and still do .
I've been blaming myself .
It's all my fault , and I know it .
I'm sorry I screwed up so badly . I'm sorry things weren't satisfactory .
I'm sorry what I've planned didn't meet your expectations .
I'm sorry it wasn't a pleasant memory .
But I've tried .
It wasn't the other comm member's fault .
I was incompetent , and I still am .
I don't think I was meant to be a leader .
I don't think I was meant to take up such a responsibility .
It's tough . I should have been a follower .
Seniors , do you regret choosing me ?
I'm sorry I was such a bad junior , such an incompetent one to that .
I'm sorry I didn't live up to your expectations , if you had any for me .
I'm sorry , really .
Please forgive me .
Then again , I won't ask for your forgiveness .
The juniors have a right to pinpoint my faults , because I think they can do a better job than me .
Maybe things would be better if Venice or Liyun were the president .
They'll definitely do better than me .
I'm irresponsible .
I don't manage my time well .
I'm not creative .
I'm ... trash .
Sorry .