Wednesday, June 1, 2011 12:32 PM
8. I don't wanna give in no more;

Hi , I'm back again . This time , on a rant , again . Uh , hehehe .
So it's like , have you ever felt that you're always giving in ?
Like , you can't afford this 'special someone' to be upset or mad ?
It's like , the entire world has to give in to her ! That's crazy .
Look , just because you've got a temper , doesn't mean we have to say "yes" to everything you say .
Like as if I don't have a temper ?
I just don't wanna show it .
Cos if I do , I can be a total bitch and make you hate me for life .
Or should I say , I could hate you for life .
People say , "only child"s are the ones being snobbish and stuck-up and that everyone has to give in to them , yada yada .
Bullshit .
I'm the only child , and you don't see people actually giving in to me .
What actually happens is , I GIVE IN TO PEOPLE .
Maybe I'm just weak , I'm a lackey , being pulled around by my friends .
You know what ? I've had enough of that .
I don't want to live for the "happiness" of another person .
That's not my job .
God didn't let me stay on this earth just to please you .
I'm tired of so , so , so , so , so many stuff that's happening in my life .
I feel like a servant .
I'm never the main problem .
I know that .
My problems are always the "unimportant ones" .
"Hey Vivian , that's not the main problem ."
"Look , we have to solve her problem first ."
"Nah , that's not a problem at all ."
"Solve it yourself . We don't have time for that ."
"Oh yeah , that's a problem . But that's your problem . Not mine ."
I'm sorry that my problems are not problems .
I just thought that as a friend , you might care ?
Okay , I thought wrong then . I always do , anyway .
Looks like I'm independent .
Mum told me never to be dependent anyway . Ha .
So then , cheers .