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I don't wanna say goodbye .
Isn't it too early ? I've only known you for 4 years .
But we only became close since last year .
Isn't it too early ?
Time is too little for us to know each other better .
Maybe us juniors are too dependent on you seniors , but believe it or not , we are like lost sheep
without you .

Mandy the secretary of AHSCO .
I always wanted to be the secretary .
We got close last year , through Crystal (kinda) .
And I was in the comm too . We lived near each other , and you were an awesome senior .
Nice , pretty , organized , and friendly .
I was really happy that I had a great senior like you .
We watched concerts together , we stayed back in CO room together , and we MRT-ed home together .
You were like an older sister I never had .
Partially because I don't have any siblings , but that's not the main point !
What I'm saying is , I'm really happy and proud , that I can boast to my friends , telling them ,

"Hey , I'm really close to my senior . We go out together , and instead of a senior-junior relationship , we share a friendship bond that's strong ."

When my friends complain about their seniors , I'm proud to say , "My senior's awesome , we have no problems at all ."

Although we don't really share any heart-to-heart moments , and we don't share relationship-wise problems , we could still get along , and are very good friends . All in all , I just wanna say : I love you .

Some emotions can't be phrased into sentences , and my gratitude for you as a senior can't be described with sentences , either . Thank you for all the love , the care , and the concern . You're the best senior any junior can get . I know everyone says that about their own senior , and I wanna make things unique , so I guess I'll say :

"Mandy , continue to stay fabulous . :D AND COME BACK MORE OFTEN OTHERWISE I'LL BUG THE SHIT OUTTA YOU HAHAHA . I'll miss you ):" <3

Crystal Kok .
We share so many moments , it's impossible to describe them all .
We watch concerts together , we go out together , we stay back in the CO room together , we talk on the phone , we SMS each other possibly everyday and any day , we talk about our deepest problems , and others .
I am a horrible descriptor and I suck at relaying my emotions , so here goes .
We weren't exactly close when I was sec1 .
Even though I was part of SYF`09 . We weren't close , at all .
In sec2 , not much either , except for the later part of the year .
I think it was through Jasmin , and slowly , we became closer .
Training together in CO room , walking down the hill together , texting .
Then we were sent for COYLC together .
Honestly , I was dreading it . I hated mixing around , especially on holidays .
I remember meeting early in the morning , carrying my gaohu case , grumbling , and cabbing to the MOE centre together .
I remember getting the Male shirts instead of the Female shirts for the COYLC tee .
I remember joking about the groupings , that Nicholas might end up in my group instead of yours .
And guess what , I was right . At that moment , your face was #epicshit .
In COYLC , we made some great friends (and not really great) .
Even though there were regrets and such , I wanna relive that moment again .

In 2011 , I guess we are a lot closer , huh ? :D
I didn't have much relationship-wise problems , well , at least , not until the March Holidays .
Yepps , I'm talking about the exchange programme at Mayflower .
Honestly , I didn't think much of it . In fact , I wanted to pon it . (seriously)
But I didn't . I don't know whether I made a right choice or not , but well , let's just say it changed my life , your life , well , our lives , severely .
It was then , I guess I kinda liked him .
And that epic moment when Noris went to ask Wanting for her number ! BEST .
And well , I remember telling you that I thought Alvin was cute . (no secrets here)
I remember you agreeing . And for that time , I was really spazzing like crazy .
Then you gave Alvin my number .
I don't remember telling you this , but when he texted me , on that fateful Saturday , I went totally crazy in tuition .
At that point of time , you didn't know I liked Alvin , yet . I don't know whether you were guessing it or not , but that's the case then .
A few weeks later , I kinda hinted to you that I like him . I'm not sure whether you caught the hint or not .
And then , the next day , I spilled the beans and told you that I did like him .
I remember your expression at that point of time . Boy , were you surprised , shocked , or what ? Difficult to comprehend !
When I asked you why you were like that , you were speechless .
That , was another moment I wanna relive .

I remember teasing you about Eugene , Brian and Chinwei .
That you had 3 guys to text ! And when I went home , I went to stalk them , to see how they look like .
I still remember the order that I stalked : Eugene , Brian , Chinwei .
And I died , HAHAHA . I clearly remember what I was thinking then . :D and so , I remember telling you to choose Eugene .
And I do remember having a fun time teasing you about Eugene . (although not as much as teasing about Chinwei)
Of course , at that point of time , I was obsessed in my little world of *coughs* Alvin . LOL .
We only texted for one month though , then he never replied .
I remember being totally depressed over this matter . I was really down . Sad . Disappointed .
You tried cheering me up , (kinda) , but I think it didn't work .
I kept thinking that he still liked Wenqi . I kept insisting , didn't I ? I was so paranoid !
Coming to think of it , I think I made it pretty obvious that I liked him . (take note , past tense)

Then , Eugene stopped texting you . You kinda got over him .
Slowly , Brian stopped too . So the LAST MAN STANDING was none other than CHINWEI . Gotta admit , he's pretty faithful ! And strong-willed :o
So attention was shifted to him , and I had a fun time taking your phone to send stupid messages HAHAHA .
Of course , I was most depressed during that point of time , because I was recuperating . Kinda . Wrong choice of word . I was trying to get over him . Didn't work , heh .

I have awesome stalking skills , and you know it . :D
Even till now , I'm still stalking them , and I'll admit that . Well but mostly , I stalk Eugene , Alvin , Darren , and Chinwei . They're more interesting to stalk .
Then came the VJCO concert . That was a turning point too .
I remember being totally awkward due to the presence of Alvin .
I remember laughing really hard cos' Chinwei made you herbal tea and you didn't wanna drink it . I joked that he spiked it so he could have you alone .
We sat at the back with Mandy , Qingying , Charmaine , Leejing and Yujun . And that irritating photographer . He was really noisy , couldn't stand him AHHHH .
I'm not sure whether you realised or not , but during the entire concert , especially before , after and during break , I was blushing quite a lot , and feeling really hot .
And then , I remember Eugene saying goodbye really loudly before we left VJC .
We had a bet , that he sent you the same message as what he sent me .
I lost , and you had fun with my phone . Which was not very fun for me because it made things awkward HAHAHA .
Anyway , so that was when I started texting Eugene proper .
Remember the mixed emotions I was having ? I couldn't decide on who .
I was pretty frustrated then , because one was treating me like shit , the other was treating me superduper nice , and yet I was angry at both .
Because I thought they treated me like a toy . (didn't tell you this part)
I wanted to wash my hands off this complicated matter . But I didn't , in the end . Couldn't bear to let go .
Then when Eugene bought me a present , I have to admit , I was really touched . (and I shall skip the details yada yada)


OKAY YOU KNOW WHAT .
WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY IS , WE HAVE SO MUCH MOMENTS TOGETHER ! You're a great sister/senior/listener that I share all my problems with and well , iloveyou ! <3
ANDAND I THINK I KNOW WHO I LIKE , NOW . :D