Fact #5 : I like really huge and lens-less geek specs , and I don't care what anyone says about them because I wear them , not you .

I close my eyes and feel your breath, I dream of you
A smile spreads across my lips, you’re breathing with me now
Time, please stop, don’t divide her and I
Wind, stop blowing, this is my last letter to you

I hope this tears will stop running someday
Someday after this darkness clear up
I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

When I feel that I’m getting tired of looking me exhausted
I want to give all my dreams I’ve kept hard
Every time I feel that I’m lacking in many things more than I have
I lost strength in my legs and drop down

I hope this tears will stop running someday
Someday after this darkness clear up
I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

Everyday I hold out comforting myself “it’ll be alright”
But it makes me afraid little by little
I tell myself to believe in myself, but I don’t
Now I don’t know how longer I can hold out

But wait it’ll come
Although the night is long, the sun comes up
Someday my painful heart will get well

I hope it helps me now
I hope the God will help me

I don’t have enough confidence more and more to overcome myself

I hope this tears will stop running someday
Someday after this darkness clear up
I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

But wait it’ll come
Although the night is long, the sun comes up
Someday my painful heart will get well

Someday…
Someday…

Why is the sky so much more blue?
Why is the breeze so perfect today?
Pretending like I don’t know
Like I didn’t hear a thing, like I erased it
Should we start talking about something else?

My eyes fill with tears, so I lift my head up
I smile a little so they won’t fall
Why are you like this to me, what are you saying?
All the things we talked about go to the sky
The words I have never said
The words I didn’t know I’d say as I cried
I like you, what do I do?

Was my recent hairstyle change bad?
Did I wear the wrong clothes?
Still pretending like I don’t know
Like I don’t remember
Should I act as if nothing happened?
Should I just say that we should go out?

Don’t say those kind of sad things
While looking at me like this
Is it that I’m childish or a bit slow?
I can’t believe it

Even though I’m crying, I smile
I block your way and I just smile widely
Why am I being like this, do I not have any shame?
I fold my pride up neatly and throw it up to the sky
The words I have never said
The words I might never be able to say again
I like you
I’m in my dream

I hope he reads this , and I hope I stop crying , because one day , I'll run out of tears . And you're wondering why I'm celebrating birthday alone this year . It's all because of you . Because of you , I need to ponder upon the questions surfacing in my mind . I need to find an answer to them . All of them . I need to know why things are so awkward between is . I just have to . Why am I being so gullible , liking someone whom I know will never return those feelings . Why can't I stop thinking of you ? When the night falls , why are the the first person I think of ? When I'm sad , why do I hope , so much , that you'll be the one there to comfort me ? When I'm happy , why are you the first person I want to share my joy with ? Why , why , why , every time I hold up my phone , I want to , so badly , text you ? Why ?

And I know you won't read this . But still , I hope , I dream , I wait . I guess I'm just a stupid girl , liking a stupid boy like you . I know you like her , and so I keep up a smile , even though gunshots pass through that stupid beating heart of mine every second I think of this matter . I pretend to stay strong , I'm not going to let anyone know how I feel , deep inside . No one would understand . Why am I crying now ? It's not the first , the second , the third time I'm crying over you . It's the millionth time . I need to get over this . But I can't . What should I do ?

Love ,

Vivian .