Friday, April 8, 2011 9:48 PM
Jealousy ;

Jealousy kills .
I'm always jealous . ): I don't know why . It's a habit , maybe . Today , I was jealous again . Why some people can draw so well but I can't . Why some people find it a joy to study and complete homework , but I can't . Why other people get benefits when they don't deserve it . Why some people can be the teacher's pet when they don't even try . Why do I have to try so hard . Why ?
I don't understand how some people are born with the silver spoon stuck in their mouth . Maybe it's called reincarnation , maybe they were really good people in the past . But I don't believe in such stuff though . I guess they're just lucky . I mean , there's got to be the rich and the poor on Earth , right ? I'm just glad I don't belong to neither , and I'm satisfied .
Today Zhixin got the new gaohu , cos' hers was faulty (?) . I'd be lying if I said I wasn't the least bit jealous . Heck , it's a brand new expensive gaohu , why wouldn't I be jealous ?! I hid it though , of course . And she seems happy with it . Although I'm also really happy with Stacy , who's my dearest gaohu . :D Think on the bright side Vivian , think on the bright side !
Oooh , my hk drama is upppppp . HAPPY HAPPY . It's so niceeeeee ! But the computer is so tempting too . ): MY RUNNING MAN EP 30 REFUSES TO LOAD . WHYYYYYY . ISSIT BECAUSE SEUNGRI IS TOO HOT FOR THE COMPUTER TO HANDLE ?! COME ON CECILIA , WORKKKKKK .
I was just watching VSCO's song . Have been quite a stalker this time round . *wiggles eyebrows* I spot people really fast , watch me ! HEHEHE . Oh man , every time I come up to blog , I don't know what to type . But after I log off , brrrrrsh , all the ideas zoom up to my head . THINK , BRAIN , THINK . I think I should name my brain Susie or something . MAYBE ALLIE . Wahaha .
Today
CRYSTAL DUMPED ME FOR SOME GUY CALLED EUGENE FROM HCI .EUGENE FROM HCI , I HATE YOU . ):
I hope this tears will stop running someday
Someday after this darkness clear up
I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears
When I feel that I’m getting tired of looking me exhausted
I want to give all my dreams I’ve kept hard
Every time I feel that I’m lacking in many things more than I have
I lost strength in my legs and drop down
I hope this tears will stop running someday
Someday after this darkness clear up
I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears
Everyday I hold out comforting myself “it’ll be alright”
But it makes me afraid little by little
I tell myself to believe in myself, but I don’t
Now I don’t know how longer I can hold out
But wait it’ll come
Although the night is long, the sun comes up
Someday my painful heart will get well
I hope it helps me now
I hope the God will help me
I don’t have enough confidence more and more to overcome myself
I hope this tears will stop running someday
Someday after this darkness clear up
I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears
But wait it’ll come
Although the night is long, the sun comes up
Someday my painful heart will get well
Someday…
Someday…
Why can't you get my hints , jerk ?